haiiiiiii.... i'm so troubled.. y? cos i dunno abt wat's ahead of me.. my future.. wat i want, wat i want to do, or be.. nothin seems to be enjoyable..

as for my current job.. i have very nice n gd bosses.. but somehow.. mayb i feel the job doesn't suit me... san fen zhong re du ba... perhaps i belong to the pharmacy but probably not as well.. i miss my attachment days, i miss my fun colleagues.. lighten the day with laughter, joy.. y i can't get those feelins back, y i dun have fun colleagues.. NOT FUN at all.. alrite i noe dat work suppose to be not fun, but while.. i've been thru fun ones, so y can't i get it back.. boring work life really turn me off..

so wat am i goin to do in the future.. alot of ppl say, the attitude i'm haven't aint goin to get me anywhere to my BONUS.. while true la... but wat can i do.. i dunno wat i want.. i juz wan to rest ba.. tired.. lethargic.. i wan to play.. u may think i'm too playful, while.. i got nothin to say..

but at the same time, i can't stop workin.. no income leh.. nobody support me.. n i got lots of expenses.. AHHHHHH........ WHAT'S MY FUTURE? hai.. should i go work anot? if yes work as wat? part time or full time? am i goin to stay long on my job? so wat if i've got a diploma dat i slogged 3 yrs for it.. so wat? i'm stuck.. hai.. or i'm juz plain LAZY.. wateva it is.. i dun care.. i'm tired.. let me slp foreva can? den i won't need to think or worry abt all these things le..

exactly 2 weeks i haven't blog at all... paiseh n sorry... i've been real busy... busy workin, busy goin out, busy attending alot of things, n hehe.. :P..

in my mind, there was alot of things i wan to write here.. but when i started typing.. it seems to bcum all blank liao..

last week was pretty bad week, cos somethin shitty happened to me.. (close frens should noe wat izit), and thks to all who r concerned abt, n esp to kaiping n tianwen, thks for rushin down to pei me.. i really appreciate dat..

finally got my sneakers from hazel, it's a little big.. well plus socks, should be a gd fit le ba.. haha..
alrite i'm officially B-R-O-K-E le... yup.. though i'm workin.. aiya.. cos i overspend, esp on food which cause me to gain 2.5kg~! SOB~! HELP~! muz go exercise liao.. damn bloody fat now.. N no more shopping, (with the exception of my adidas jacket, which i'm gonna get today.. haha)

Here are some of the top i've ordered lately.. Dat lead me to diggin my own grave.. BAHHH~!

NICE? haha..

and a little note to my girls, chalet been booked n PAID le.. so dun play me out.. i will get real angry... n i'm havin a big headache on the planning... hai..

k la.. i dunno wat to type le la... bb

hehe.. i've been havoc-ing for the past day... i went jb, kl, without my parents knowledge.. hehe.. take my passport n run liao~! haha.. n yeah.. lucky.. no motion sickness~! =p~!

ok... last nite... went car racin... actually wanted to go jb n race de.. but in the end cancelled.. so remain in singapore.. the car i'm in is not 1 of the racin car.. we follow the racin cars.. so fun.. car runnin at 180km/hr (it's only a toyota 1.5GL car.. wat more u expect) windows wound down, can feel the flapping of the wind on ur ears... so fast, dat i can't register wat i c... anyway... c all the subaru WRX cars.. woohoo... so fun.. like initial d.. (though i haven't watched it yet), sharp turnin, speedin at hell fast... very cool.. but all the fun ended when we were chased by the mata~! kns.. spoil the fun.. make the spin ended early... awwwwwww....

anyway 2 nites of havoc had burnt me out.. i'm sick.. kns.. fever, sore throat n flu (flu came from my sinus when i was in m'sia, wah kao, the air there trigger my sinus.. bad air there.. >.<).. Gotta nurse back my health asap as i'm startin my new work on mon.. 1st day of sales work can't expect me to go there without my voice or a sexy voice rite.. i think i will scare ppl off.. haha..

Laughter Nite

omggg... i haven't luff my ass off for a freakin long time le... really i thank u guys.. my new frens.. vincent n tian wen.. u guys r really very funny.. i juz can't stop luffing..

oh.. we went fisherman village.. nice breeze by the waters... i like this kind of feeling.. drinking (not alcohol yet), chattin, tok abt bo liao things, but they really did brighten my mood.. Cos i juz can't stop luffin but they trigger my laugh spot~! haha.. den we moved on to travel all over.. OMG.. u noe wat.. dat freakin vincent.. is travelling 180km/hr on the road.. abit scary at 1st, but quite fun.. hehe.. i can't wait to get my license~! den we went to east coast... drank beer.. not alot la.. my mug was the smallest.. haha.. n oops.. sry i smoked a stick~! orange flavour de.. smoke for fun de.. dun scold me pls~! i really enjoyed the nite.. though i prefer it to be with some1 else i'm in love with, but with frens.. it's really fun n relaxing..

oh i watched the longest yard on wed.. quite a nice movie.. cept dat one of the character died.. aw.. wasted.. it's abt rugby game.. the convicts versus the guards.. very nice.. go watch.. rate 8/10..

heh.. yesterday was my last day of work.. paid the freakin hospital back 390 bucks.. (dat explains y shop is so broke ok~!) i will miss the place.. not the work, not my boss.. but the patients.. i bu she de them... they said really touchful things to me b4 i go.. n i did bid farewell to them... though i din make much impact in their life.. but i think my smile.. cheer them up.. (cos i always smile to them de.. haha..).. oh my colleague n her bf (hehe her bf senior manager in da hospital), brought me to serangoon gardens to eat.. rich ppl eatin place.. kns.. anyway.. we had SHARKFIN~! aw.. so nice.. treat me sharkfin.. i feel so pampered.. thks.. i promise i treat u all back once my new job is stable.. had other dishes as well, like lemon prawn, scallop with brocoli n deer's meat.. really enjoyed it..~!

lalala.. i'm so happy.. cos i might b goin to m'sia later.. without my parents knowledge.. but it's go awhile den come back le.. k la.. i sound sua ku.. but.. shop seldom travel so far de ma.. lookin forward to it.. waitin for all the pigs to wake up..

anyway i forget to mention, i seriously love the feelin of being chauffeured~!

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i've run out of ideas of wat my title should b.. yup.. so it's juz ???..

i think i forget to mention in my previous post dat while i was at Changi Hospital's Pharmacy.... U noe wat? The pharmacy technician dispensed me the WRONG medication~! OMG~! Lucky i'm a pharm tech as well.. if not.. take wrong med home also dunno.. wth.. it's a MEDICATION ERROR alrite~! nvm.. it's all over...

i've been feelin very sick n extremely down lately... yup. so if u c shop, pls cheer her up.. she's sad.. mayb bcos of asthma, mayb bcos lewei goin army, mayb bcos of dat ehem (i think this is the main factor), mayb bcos of pms, mayb bcos of work (very stressed period..), mayb all of the above..

heh... updates on my loot... finally my boho long skirt is here.. thks hazel for the trouble.. but... tried the skirt... looks fat on me leh... dunno should i wear go out anot... haha... can't post any pics cos i lend my camera out.. so another time ba..

i wan to get a jacket... cropped jacket, adidas jacket! speakin of adidas jacket... the design i like is no longer available le~! SOB SOB~! >.<~! hai... as for cropped jacket.. all i've seen not nice 1 leh.. sian...

order a pair of sneakers frm taiwan auction again.. all dajie's fault.. tempt me to buy... will update once it has arrive..

hai.. i broke down yesterday... at work... i dunno y la.. maybe i'm too stressed, plus i'm not well.. haha.. den i called lewei n for the 1ST time , he cheered me up.. anyway thks alot..

anyway.. lazy to type liao.. tata
anyway.. i super no mood.. gonna take 2 days mc later.. i dun care.. i dun wan to work.. though my last day of work is on Thurs..

Update on Shop's Health

ok.. here's a big news.. shop had an asthma attack on fri evening.. was sent to the hospital via ambulance.. am alright now.. but had referal for her chest pain.. belows is how the situation is like on fri.. she almost got pissed off to the extreme by her mum..

shop reached home on fri at abt 6pm.. she asked her mum to call to her clinic doc to inform him dat she will be unable to work dat nite cos shop is feelin unwell.. (sort of noe asthma gonna relapse liao.. plus experiencin chest pain)

1st Pissed off: my mum told the doc (in mandarin): hello, doc ar.. i'm shop's mum.. she wans me to tell u dat SHE SAID she having asthma can't go to work..

wat i'm pissed is y my mum muz say I SAID i'm having asthma n can't go to work.. can't she juz say my daughter is having asthma.. muz say is said by me~! like dat the doc will believe meh.. n the most angry part is u noe wat did the doc response... he said.. next time ask ur daughter to inform me earlier.. so late liao i can't get replacement.. COME ON LOR.. USE UR FUCKIN HEAD.. ASTHMA CAN PREDICT EARLIER N TELL U EARLIER AR.. KNN.. ASTHMA IS A SUDDEN THING LOR.. HOW EARLY U WAN ME TO TELL U.. FUCKER.. NO BRAINS DOC.. USE HIS BUTT N THINK... KNN.. as if i noe i will have an attack in really advance like 2pm.. sry ar.. can't help but scold the bloody doc stupid..

2nd Pissed off: i was having an attack in my room.. yet u noe wat my mum was doing? she was readin newspaper.. wah kao.. her daughter sufferin yet she's readin newspaper.. *faint*.. den i called my dad.. n told him i very xin ku.. he ask me to call my mum to bring me go c doc.. i was xin ku dat i told my dad.. i got no more breath to shout for my mum.. ask him call home n tell my mum.. (imagine i din had my hp with me.. imagine i din call my dad.. i asthma until die liao, my mum still readin newspaper ba.. where got this kind of mum de.. really pengz..~!)

3rd Pissed off: my mum came into my room.. saw me attack.. n she handled me like i'm those normal kind of sick n ask me, come i bring u go c doc.. i was already numb.. whole body numb ok~! i can't move liao.. my hands were all stiff~! i can't even hold my inhaler, let alone use it~! i told my mum i can't move.. whole body numb.. n u noe wat she did.. she stood there n looked at me... wah kao.. i'm so pissed but i couldn't help n shout at her.. Y R U STANDIN THERE N LOOKIN AT ME~!? I VERY XIN KU LEH.. CALL THE AMBULANCE LA~!

4th Pissed off: den my mum react: wat's the no. to call ambulance? 999 ar? wah kao.. i really pengz sia.. i'm thinkin.. my mum lives on a mountain ar or a cave? AMBULANCE also dunno wat no. to call~! wah piangz.. Den she called my dad n ask.. n finally called an ambulance for me...

5th Pissed off: while waitin for the stupid ambulance to come (the ambulance was experiencin jam at paya lebar..) i wanted to called 2 persons.. 1 is lewei.. yup.. but i tot of wat he said to me earlier.. ( i told him earlier on mon to standby 24hrs in case i had asthma, n his reaction was.. find some1 else can? i got no time for this kind of thing..~! wah kao.. so heartless rite? nvm.. forget it) 2nd person is blah blah blah.. (my close frens should noe who is he..) but hai.. even if i called him also no use.. he's so far away.. (yuan shui jiu bu liao jing huo..).. so in the end i called lewei's sis.. Lewei's mum was with her sis as well.. den they told me to teach my mum how to use my inhaler on me.. but i said i was so pissed off dat i dun wan to tok to my mum anyhow.. cos the more i communicate with her.. i noe i sure get pissed off further n aggravate my condition further.. i rather leave it as it is.. den my mum took my hp over n lewei's mum taught my mum how to use my inhaler.. well.. my mum juz actually anyhow pressed my inhaler in the AIR.. omg.. freakin god... the inhaler is supposed to be placed in my mouth for goodness sake.. she's juz wastin my inhaler puffs.. got pissed further.. den awhile later.. the SCDF ppl r here.. n they took over the situation..

the SCDF calmed me down.. let me had neubulizer.. n yup.. i'm better.. den they sent me to Changi Hospital A&E.. =).. finally... i'm rescued~! lol...

oh by the way.. the ambulance came 3 guys.. 1 malay, 1 indian n 1 chi... the only chi was quite a cute guy.. lol.. but abit small size.. lol.. not bad lookin.. too bad din ask for his no.. lol... asthma.. seh seh liao.. still can think of this kind of thing.. lol.. =p ...

k la.. more updates on the clothes i had lately on my next post.. late liao.. gotta slp.. tml still gotta work.. sian..

Reviving My Dead Blog

cheers to hazel~! for reviving my old blog, givin it a brand new look~! thks alot.. i really love it~!

oh lots of stuff to update.. but i'm busy.. gotta type an argeement letter for my dad.. shall update tml if i'm free.. hehe..

tata..